Surrender to a life more perfect than any plan!

In a recent CrossFit session, the coach made an interesting point that keeps resonating with me, especially this week.  He pointed out how technique for some of the more complicated movements actually improves as a person gets tired. Basically, the body becomes more efficient instinctively recruiting the right muscles to get the job done when the mind has given up on the ones it recruits.

It's been quite the few months for me. I took an incredible opportunity with my company. One that in four months has seen me the busiest I've ever been in life. Between the mentally demanding nature of my job, and the physcially demanding nature of the travel required, I suddenly found myself exhausted from all the other things that had been so much apart of my life. The overthinking, the worry, the planning. I suddenly no longer had time for any of it. Oddly, this was a gift. The chance to reprioritize my life and the people in it. I have never in my life appreciated just how precious time is, until I suddenly found myself without any. Without any effort my life began to realign itself, it became simple and clear where my values and priorities lay. My energy naturally shifted to the things that I needed.

I have become inherently more effective in so many areas of my life. I took up CrossFit two months ago to meet my need to focus on health, fitness and strength. I am happiest and most complete when I feel that my body can do anything. It lends to my mental well being, and my overall ability to function as the best possible version of myself.  With that, the value I place on my friendships has also realigned, my desire and commitment to dating and what I'm looking for has shifted. I am satisfied.  I am happy. I am complete. It's as though I've finally fatigued from trying, and have shifted to autopilot. My heart and mind now carry me in the best possible way to the best possible situations.

I surrendered, and just as in the past, every time I do, amazing things I could have never dreamed of have made their way into my life.  My eyes and heart are wide open to everything coming. I continue to put energy in the places I can control, but spend much less fighting the rest. People have come and gone from my life, and in most situations I am happily satisfied with the gift or lesson they've brought to my life.

I ran into a friend I haven't seen since highschool (about 15 years ago) as we crossed an intersection in Downtown Toronto in opposite directions. We are an hour from where we both met and grew up. She asked me about my writing. She brought me another sign. I met another long time friend for coffee to talk about song writing. And just last night, I met the person who is without question the person I need to really get my book project into action.

Today, I'm fatigued by the inefficient way I've been living my life. In surrendering to that fatigue, my life is now leading me in the right direction without my input. I feel like things are really lining up... eeeeee! I'm excited and scared, but feel like I'm on the verge of another major shift.

Surrender...to a more perfect living than any you could have planned for.