I've come to realize that the common thread between my own personal panick experiences and those I hear from friends is when a relationship starts to form and we naturally begin looking and planning too far ahead. We easily take our sights off of the life we were living, and start planning a different one. A few things happen for me at times like this... my expectations of a person change, I set myself up for disappointment, and I can lose sight of who I am. Where does this leave me... there are two directions I end up going 1) Running in the opposite direction, 2) Setup with high expectations and a high probability of disappointment.
So here's the update... Chris is still maintaining the let's be friends card - and has gone as far as telling me about bad dating experiences... a little awkward. A random out of the blue message from Jason who lives in the USA who suddenly misses me. And then there's Aaron...
Things have been progressing with Aaron. He's still not my usual type, and the progress as a result would normally see me running for the door. Everyday I'm waiting for the other foot to fall. Not willing to jump into things because it's just too normal. I find myself toying between potentially accepting that he may really be a great guy and allowing myself to open up and be vulnerable, or continuing to hold back looking for a proble...
For today, I've decided it doesn't have to be this complicated. Why get so ahead of ourselves. I think I'm just going to enjoy it for today! And in the meantime, I'm going to keep LIVING! Off for some business and pleasure on the West Coast this weekend!
Whatever you do, whatever you are dealing with, keep living your life... let the rest fall into place :).
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