Am I finding my groove??? What is this new feeling... For the first time in my life I find myself almost wanting to rid my life completely of prospects, the word exhausts me. Hearing friends talk about dating exhausts me. I have truly found a balance in life right now. I am happy :). My greatest challenge is filtering out the noise of my friends and loved one's who think they know what I need - "why aren't you dating?" "why don't you try this website?" "why don't you call this guy?" "why won't you give that one a chance?"
Don't get me wrong, I totally appreciate the care and concern everyone puts into worrying about me, as I'm sure - all of you - my single friends can also appreciate, but sometimes I could live without all the noise. I am actually enjoying my life the way it is right now. Everyday is a new adventure... I'm free to make spontaneous decisions, go where I want, be with who I want, travel when I want, come home when I want, eat what I want... see the pattern here? And the best part... I never know what opportunity is around the next corner, and I find that exhilirating.
If you had asked me a year ago, 6 months ago, even 3 months ago, the thought of not knowing drove me insane. My life was planned to the nth degree. But that was no fun... I had all the stability in the world while I was married, I bounced from one unfulilling relationship to another afterward. But something was always missing... why? I was looking to fill my life needs and hopes with a relationship. I truly believed that my life was meant to be shared - which I still believe. The difference is, I am finally making myself happy, I am finally getting to know who I am. Just because I am not in a relationship does not make me lonely.
My life right now is full... full of the things I love to do and people I love to be with. My friends and family fill every waking minute that is not filled by me exploring what life has to offer, my passions, hobbies and new challenges. With spring upon us I am getting back into Road Cycling, the best place I can think of to clear my head and heart. I also put myself out there this week and went with a friend to try Hot Yoga for the first time. Yoga is just one of many things I used to say "I can't do" or "I don't like". With a slightly changed perspective, I actually think it's something I am going to truly invest in. The chance to truly connect with mind and body.
If you're alone, make the choice, don't be lonely! Get out there and LIVE! Try new things, get busy being in this world. Sitting alone wondering "when" or "how" or "who" is frustrating, isolating, and lonely. Get out there and let yourself be surprised by the countless delights and opportunities the universe is trying to give you!
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