Ok it's been a while, but I have an excuse! I've somehow landed on the Universal Yes List! What does that mean... my life is yet again being flooded with opportunity! Somedays I have to just pinch myself and laugh and announce out loud to myself, yes, this is real life! As I've believed all along, when you are open, opportunities come... and that has been the story of the past few weeks for me. In fact, the universe has lined up the next month+.
Amazing opportunities from Poker Boat Runs, Concerts, random dinner dates with old friends and new, exclusive party events... it has been quite the ride.
From the dating side... I'm still standing still... Chris is still in the picture but receding in priority for me. After about 7 dates with Jeff, I decided to listen to my heart. It was time to create some space again for me. I realized I was holding on to Jeff as a distraction... my typical back up plan to protect myself. In the end, my intuition was right, and I feel so good being able to acknowledge and let go! It does get easier as you get more in touch with who you are, and realize that you don't want to change for anyone else. It's been a foggy journey with most relationships for me. I naturally became a chameleon not even realizing I would adjust to whomever was in my life, not to please them, but to protect them from seeing the real me. I finally stood up and said, nope, not this time... and although Jeff's reaction clearly expressed exactly what my intuition was telling me, I feel good about the decision. Why clutter your life with distraction? It doesn't do much more then take up the space you need for good things to come into your life... so I'm clearing it out.
On the same note, I had a great impromptu evening with friends last night, and the best part, not only did I get the ego boost I needed in the lull and emptiness of my clean up, but I actually saw Chivalry in action. Opening doors, carrying bags, leading, protecting, serving... for a moment I felt selfish taking it in. When I commented to my friend that I felt that way, he laughed and said, how is that selfish? Then proceeded to point out what made me a great catch, and how I didn't see it. He shared his online dating experiences, successes and disasters, and reminded me that mediocrity would be settling! Be selfish, expect more...
So, with that today my space is getting cleaner by the minute as I let go of the thoughts about whether someone is coming or going in my life, and turn my focus to the things I deserve and want in my life... holding on is exhausting... allowing is much more enjoyable!
Make room friends... and know that the good stuff is still out there! Open up and send the universal yes, and let me know what happens!
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