So it is true...just when you think you've figured out who you are, everything changes or you make the realization that everything needs to change. And then it does...
I often consider myself a "change expert". That is after I've gone through the change and adjusted and begin to find the bright spots at the end of the change. However, in the middle of it, who's kidding who... It sucks, it's uncomfortable and mostly it just makes me itch for the comfort of what I knew, despite not wanting it when I had it. I'm sure I'm not alone in this...
The good news is, as life goes on and you grow in self-awareness... You have many experiences to refer back to and push yourself through. For those who have been following my blog I'm sure you have seen countless examples of this in my life. Well... I did it again.
Almost 3 years after leaving my marriage and living alone in the burbs, a number of dating experiences, loves, pains, and change, I continued to rediscover myself only to realize that maybe just maybe I was no longer the small town girl anymore. Perhaps it was time to get lost in the city to see if I could find myself again. I did just that... Moved downtown.
Amazing things have happened since... Mostly I've continued to evolve, learn grow and meet incredible new people, each of whom has taught me so much more about who I am. I wish I cold say it's been a walk in the park kind of decision. But almost 2 months in, things keep changing and I've had moments of wondering who the hell I am again, wondering if I should have just stayed in the burbs, wondering if it'd just be easier to go back. BUT, as someone who believes it all happens for a reason, I take a scan of all that I've learned, all that's happened and realize... I am still exactly where I'm meant to be for today.
It's been scary, exciting, painful... But it will somehow all be worth it... I'm optimistic... And as promised have decided to hop back on the blog-wagon and share my journey again. Thanks for joining me...
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