Leaning a little...

If there is one thing I’ve learned in life, it’s that I am not super human.  Sometimes life throws a little more than I can handle alone. This has been one of those weeks.  With my first book set to be released in just over 48 hours, I have found the very human side of myself.  I have had to lean a little today, and I am so glad I did. All around me exists an incredible network of love and support, that continues to allow me to just be me knowing there is a soft landing should I fall.  

When I began my writing journey over 2 years ago, it started with a piece about timing. I wrote about an experience that occurred that was the result of the timing of a sequence of events that put me in a very specific place at a very specific moment making me realize, it was meant to happen.  It was the start of journey of noticing life lining itself up with only one requirement for me - to remain open. Any resistance to the events would have produced a very different outcome.

As I sat tonight to layout my message for the book launch on Saturday, I felt a sense of panic. What if the words don’t come? What if my message isn’t clear? What if I can’t even remember why I wrote the book?

Oddly, it was that kind of day. They happen, I’m human. Incredibly, one by one, the very things and people I needed started to show up in my life. My phone rang off the hook tonight. Friends and family who felt the need to check in with me. Each conversation encouraging and reminding  me about the journey I’ve been on, the message in my heart, and my impact in their lives. So I am reminded again, to have the courage and faith to believe that I will get everything I need. My only job is not to figure it all out, but to be open and ask for what I need.

Better yet, it felt good to lean a little… giving isn’t the only way to love, receiving is equally important, as it leaves room for others to give as well.