You say it... but do you believe your own words?

Over the past two years, I have said many things, convinced that's how I felt, what I believed, what I wanted. Funny... looking back today, I realize I never really believed my words, I just wanted to. But, that's ok... sometimes when you get stuck, you have to "fake it to make it" or say it until you believe it. In speaking to friends, especially ones who are "stuck", sitting in the middle of their own storm, looking out and saying "I know what you're telling me, but how do I do it???". 

There is no worse feeling than knowing you need to change something, and not knowing how. It's the world we live in, it's who we are. We are raised to "solve problems", "control situations", "follow directions". So many things that leave us more confused, frustrated and hopeless at times. Yet, when you have walked through it, you are that one on the other side telling someone "it will just happen", "you will get there", all the words you hated to hear when you didn't believe... when you were stuck in your own storm and couldn't see the way out of it.

On this beautiful day in South Western Ontario, I had the opportunity to take a long walk with a girlfriend, enjoying the outdoors, sharing our experiences and hope, and clearing our heads and hearts. I found myself again sharing my own life and love lessons. Funny how you already know so many things, but you just need to keep hearing them... something that came out of my mouth before I could even digest it "know that you are where you are supposed to be. In this moment, there is a lesson. You just may not figure out what that lesson was today or for a long time...". That is the piece of hope I give myself in a bad moment. Before I said it, but I never believed it. In hindsight, my lesson is that over a period of reminding myself of all the things I know, taking in all the lessons I've learned and continue to learn, today I can look back and honestly admit I said alot of things I never believed.  The difference between how I feel today about knowing them and how I did is that today, I believe! And it feels amazing!!!