Being Me...Effortlessly

It seems I'm once again in my flow.  Just 48 hours go I found myself stalled by my feelings.  Something I needed to say was weighing me own. I took some to to myself to put m thoughts in writing.  I've come to learn in recent months that the weight of things unspoken is far more damaging then the results of speaking my truth.  Immediately after getting the things. Needed to say off my chest I felt the weight magically disappear, and I returned to this new vibe. The shift happened again...when you speak your truth, your personal power grows.

Free and strong, I have been back to being present in my life. And...the universe has responded in kind.  A flurry of invitations came at me. What changed? So odd...but it seems to go back to the paddle boat in the river.  When you follow the current and let go of the  oars, it takes you effortlessly to amazing places and people you never imagined.  So hy fight it?  True strength might look more like endless faith then grunting and fighting to paddle upstream.

Tonight, that flow lead me into the first truly blind date of my life.  The best part about it was the impossibility of any expectation.  I'd never spoken to David, never seen. Photograph, I had nothing more than the few words of the Voice on the phone who arranged the whole date.  And...I just let go.  I walked in without any nerves. The whole evening was effortless.  Conversation flowed, with a blank slate and zero expectation I was completely free to be me! What an incredible experience.  We dined for 3 hours and talked about anything and everything. I am satisfied and sleepy. For once I have no desire to sit and recall the conversation. But rather to know that no decision needs to be made and enjoy this moment for the end to a great night.

David was beyond a gentleman and our conversation simply reinforced all the things I've learned about what I'm looking for.  This is how a first date should feel...effortless.

Why do we put so much pressure on ourselves? To not be rejected? What if we could change that perspective to see it as a choice? Tonight I was me. Nothing more, nothing less. That's good enough :)