How much clutter fills your mind? It's surprising when you stop to acknowledge your own feelings. When things feel unsettled and you realize it has to do with things that you never said, would have said differently, wish you never said, things you never did, did, or wish you did differently. I for be have wasted a lot of time and room in my life holding on to the "clutter". Until recently... You see, everyday is an opportunity to do a spring cleaning. It's never too late, from this moment forward. It takes work, and practice. But...just as you feel with a clean and organized home, life is pretty amazing when your slate is clear too.
It's the point where you have truly expressed your own truth, without fear of results or challenge. Knowing that the truth has come from a place of love, for yourself. I have been guilty for years of not speaking my truth to people for fear of hurting them, when I was actually only hurting myself and in turn hurting them through the resentment that silently filled me.
Today, I feel like my past is clean and organized. I have been truthful in all of my situations finally. With that I can let the clutter go...out like the trash. However, we all know the frustration of spending hours cleaning your home only to have it messy again a short time later. But... It can be easy to keep it that way if you commit to the maintenance everyday moving forward. With my slate clean, I have promised and continue to work at speaking my truth. Being honest and upfront with the people in my life about my feelings.
It's not a perfect process, it's not easy. We all have the chaotic days where we don't have the time to hang up our clothes at the end of the day. That's ok. But, before it gets out of control, I am getting much better at making the time to catch up again when I get off track. If something bothers me, I need to go back to the person or situation, regardless of the outcome, and speak my truth. It gets easier when you feel the weight that's lifted. In talking with a friend today I could see my own resistance to doing this in the past, the fear, the weight of the what ifs... As you try this and feel the freeness that follows, it gets easier.
Lately it seems, the free space I have made in my life has allowed me to welcome in a host of new people and opportunities. It's a kind of happy I can't even describe, light and free... Give it a try.
Once you're there, it's more important than anything you keep it clean. Especially when dating. I've learned the hard way, the things I wouldn't say in the beginning grew too big to fix later on. Don't waste the chance to say it... If speaking your truth is a deal breaker for a relationship, it would be doomed by the hoarding anyway...just my humble opinion.
Happy spring cleaning :)
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