Riding the Moments...

I've met my Aidan... Maybe two of them as a matter of fact.  My week ended on an amazing note, and one I hardly anticipated. Matt flew back to Atlanta, yet wanted to stay in the city.  I've known him for a year and ever thought much more of him then the fact that he was an attractive and successful guy.  A few years younger then me, I'd written off the thought, also because Chris has held my heart.  For the first time however, the openness to Matt was exactly what I needed. Maybe it was new or maybe for once I was receptive o it, but I started to feel and notice some very attractive traits in Matt that I'd not seen before. He is charming, giving, warm, sweet and truly chivalrous, yet I'd always guarded my thoughts against his good looks, athletic body, and smooth intelligent conversation. What I discovered kind of shocked and intrigued me.  He revealed in an intimate conversation that he'd wanted to kiss me or a year, but never thought I'd ever be interested in him. Huh? The vibe?

By the time he'd left I felt satisfied, excited and renewed in some indescribable way.  He'd awoken something inside me. His thoughtful and flattering texts, his longing to curl up beside me for a movie, the way he'd call out of the blue, his smile bursting through the phone with a "hello gorgeous". He made me smile from the inside out. I knew he wanted to o bak, yet I felt no urgency to lock down plans. Now, this was a new feeling. I enjoyed that, and feel content in his absence to just continue to enjoy the flashbacks of moments...namely the look in his eyes when he sat beside me smiling from ear to ear with nothing to say, his blue eyes gleaming, sending a wave of warmth through my body that triggered a smile on my  face. There was nothing to say, and that was perfectly ok.

Then there was Benjamin. It had been a couple weeks since we connected.  He wanted to see me Saturday, but I'd made plans for my good friend Kelly to visit me in the city for the night.  Not sure how or why, but before I knew it, I'd offered him to join us for a drink, which wound up in an invitation for him and a single friend to join us for dinner.  Benjamin, ever the gentleman, and his friend picked Kelly and I up and off we went to the Local Kitchen and Wine Bar in Parkdale. A small restaurant setting just 22 people. The vibe was amazing.  A few bottles of wine and a cocktail later, we were lost in conversation.  Benjamin is very good at saying what he thinks, which I adore, yet makes me blush.  Just one course into dinner he leaned in pulling my chair closer to his and whispered in my ear, "how long until I can kiss you tonight?"  The blood warmed my cheeks, I was blushing yet completely enthral led by his forward approach.  I would have gotten up and dragged him out of the restaurant that minute, but the teasing of his hand on my thigh and whispers in my ear, challenged me to sit back and enjoy the tension.  This was the intimacy I'd wanted with a person. The kind that extended way beyond the moments in a bedroom. The kind that builds attraction.

I was engrossed in every moment of the evening, relaxed, present, and truly enjoying myself. We made our way to The Drake, where Samantha joined the party.  Samantha and Kelly connected immediately. I sat back for a second to check in with myself. Everything was perfect. There wasn't a detail I would change. I was I the moment, for adored, felt happy, intrigued, sexy, and just generally connected to the moments around me.  We continued our crawl back to King West. On our last stop, the vibe had caught Samantha, who was within moments of visual contact being seduced by a French Moroccan.  For once, my wing woman had fallen under her own spell. I was delighted, almost giddy for her. Meanwhile, Benjamin did his thing working the room as social as he is, yet I felt his eyes on me. While in conversation with a group of beautiful women, he stepped toward me, grabbed my hand, pulled me into his arms and planted a long soft kiss on my lips.  The feeling was electric. Not one to be claimed, I couldn't help but succumb to he feeling of being the most beautiful woman in the room. All that before I found myself over Benjamin's shoulder being carried down King Street. What a night... 

Could I feel more content with my life just as it is? For a brief second it occurred to me that I didn't want to be involved exclusively with anyone, I am in my flow. Then I found myself snapping back to, and realized I'd gotten ahead of the moment. Right now, I am exactly where I want to be. Until anything changes, I'm along for the ride, eat. Lovely rid this is ❤