Some women aren't meant to be tamed...

The shift, the smile project, the move to the city...falling in love, losing love...I really can't put a finger on what's happening right now...I can only say I truly love my life just the way it is.  Sure there is someone for whom I might consider changing it, but that situation is outside of my grasp for the moment.  In the meantime, life has truly tossed some incredible opportunities at me.  It's kinda full...and fun!

I used to plan my weeks just to make sure they were full. It occurred to me this weekend when Ben asked me how my week was shaping up that I had really stopped planning when I moved to the city.  Life here has been so different. Perhaps exactly what I need at this point in my life, and I may be settling into it...  Plans or no plans, my weeks are full. Full of fun, adventure, new people, new stories, new places. Sure I have my moments, there is a small place inside me that still holds on to something that is missing. Yet, I can't help but feel the need to pinch myself most other times, so much that just seems to good to be real. Invites, events, random dates, lots of time with many different groups of friends, I no longer need to make anything happen, it's happening all by itself. In fact, I almost prefer to keep the weeks open just to see where they go.

The pieces all seem to be fitting exactly where they need to for the time being.  Work continues to present new and exciting opportunities I never see coming. Friends have me on the yes list, and together we're eating up opportunities to get out in the city and just BE. Dating... Well, who knew it could be so fun?!?  Maybe a little too much fun these days...??? Im beginning to think I'm not meant to be in a relationship right now, maybe just maybe, I don't even want to be in one.  Yikes...did those words just come out of my mouth?

I am more free and spontaneous then I remembered after living such a cautiously planned, timed and controlled life. The next question, where will I find someone who wants to run free through this world with me? 

"Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with" ~ Carrie Bradshaw