Looking back, despite many gaps between relationships, I've come to the conclusion I've never truly been completely and utterly single. Shocking! Whether I've been in a relationship or not, I've always had someone in mind, a prospect, a crush... something to think about or work with. Funny how everyone around you can know so much more about you then you realize yourself. That's what I learned when I surveyed a few long term friends about my life.
So with the beginning of a New Year, and having thrown much of what was on ice in December, no prospects, no online dating... I find myself for the first time accepting the challenge of truly Flying Solo! So here we are, one week into 2012. And I am already feeling different... I had dreaded NYE. The night of so much pressure - who will you be with, where will you go, etc... Instead, I spent the entire evening with my best friend at home. Eating, drinking, laughing, and reminding each other of all the great things each of us has to offer. Looking back to the dreams we used to share with each other about future relationships, and having a laugh at how unrealistic and unrealized they are now. But in the moment, being totally ok with just being with each other, not needing anything more.
So, a year and a half after the official end of my marriage, after 3 failed relationship attempts, and very little focus on getting reaquainted with me... here I am, finally looking at me. A Friday night, lots of friends around, and I chose to spend it alone, in fact I actually looked forward to it! I went online, bought myself a ticket to see a movie, skipped out the door, and loved every minute of the experience. I went to see New Years Eve. A great happy feeling movie. One of the plot lines was about a woman and her list of resolutions that she had waited far too long in life to try to accomplish, and it got me thinking... NOW IS THE TIME! So here we go...
Going to a movie alone - CHECK!
How well do you know yourself?
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