Here goes nothing...time to take my very own advice! In the 3 months I've known Chris, I've never invited him to my home or even the city I live in. The last time the discussion came up, we were still toying with getting to know each other and the prospect of a relationship. When things went off the rails and we landed on the friends card, I pretty much decided I was off the hook.
The idea of showing this person my most intimate space has been daunting. We come from VERY different lifestyles. But here it is... the ugly yet beautiful truth about dating and relationships... the focus should not be on those material things, but on us as people. Another fear that bears no truth. This is about me, not my home or my material possessions. Anyone lucky enough to be in my life will accept ALL of me.
Perhaps this was the risk I've needed to take all along. The one that would tell me everything I need to know about the situation. That chance arrived... at brunch Chris asked why I have never invited him to my home or city... so I took it. An invitation is enroute as I write this. I will now have to look the fear of a) outright rejection b) acceptance and actually having to open up that side of my life to someone. Really... what is the worst that can happen??? I've either unfairly predicted the outcome/values of another person, or actions will sy everything I need to hear :)
Here's " to looking fear in the face and saying, I just don't care!" ~ Glitter in the Air, PINK
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