A few months ago I chose to try the online dating game again. With many options, I settled for a paid site, thinking it might provide better quality prospects, and figured I had nothing to lose. I quickly met and clicked with someone, CHRIS. It was an amazing week of speaking and anticipation before we finally met. I'd never been so nervous in my life to meet someone. Our conversations were out of this world, my heart fluttered at the thought, and the inner romantic thought maybe this was my gut telling me something.
So a few weeks go by. We spend a ton of time together. Then, like clock work, CHRIS pulls the 180. Going from initiating everything and pushing for time together to, whoa... We need to slow down. So we both agree and that is that. It eventually fizzles... He insists on remaining friends. Again... Can you be just friends after that? I questioned it from the beginning. But, it seems to have been ok for the past few months. And then... The proposition came, the suggestion or qualifying statement about FWB. A conversation that went against every reason I fell for CHRIS in the beginning. I think I've been hit with another case of TRUE COLOURS, and it's a bit disappointing...
So I ask, is there not a point in life where people are through with playing games? Ready to be true blue? What is so wrong with being who we are and letting others decide if that is what they are interested in?
Here I am... Again wondering how to start over and if I want to. Yet, I have a blind coffee date this evening. The reason I decided on venturing back online in the first place was the prospect of meeting someone entirely new. A fresh start, and good way to avoid getting involved with the past.
Why does time always tell? And where can you buy patience ;). Looking for your thoughts...
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