Last night I took a chance, knowing I could be devastated today if the outcome didn't turn out as I hoped. I think everyone has been there. The old me put actions into place with full on expectations of what the results would look like... the new me... with a lot of work, realizes the results are not only not within my control, but also not really my problem either. I can only control my thoughts, actions and behaviours. And if I'm going to be true to me, and live a life without regret or question, I need to be prepared to do the things iI want and need to donwithout fear.
So I did. So far the results are not what I'd hoped or imagined... but I'm actually not as disappointed as I thought I would be. In a strange way, I feel rewarded and proud. I stretched beyond what was my normal comfort zone and put myself out there. The results will take care of themselves.,
So what happened? I put out a formal invite to Chris to join me for an evening where I live. Not only did I not get the response or reaction I'd hoped for, but actually didn't get any reaction yet at all. yet, I'm happy... and worthy... and I.'m not even going to worry about it. My life is full and I'mhappy, probably the happiest I've ever been. I am truly open and free...
On a separate note, Aaron reached out for an impromptu get together. Our schedules have both been hectic, but we managed to squeezed 45 minutes for a quick coffee, and our 2nd meeting. I left smiling. For once not trying to look ahead and figure anything out. Just content in the moment, full of warmth, hope and optimism that I am exactly where I am meant to be for today. I don't have to worry about tomorrow until the sun comes up again.
Tonight, I'm walking on sunshine.... and smiling!!!
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