The Boomerang Effect... you can run but you can't hide!!!

Here it is... just when you think life is on the verge of settling down again. Ha!!! Don't be fooled... I have once again had to learn that you can run but you can't hide. Ever swept a problem under the rug, and it just kept crawling out?  I assumed one of my problems was dealt with when it moved half way across the country... today, I felt the boomerang effect.

Let me first preface this discussion, by laying the framework for the day. Today is Valentine's Day... a Hallmark Holiday that carries with it a host of different pressures. I began the day as well as could be, filled with "No Expectation" and warmed by a flood of messages from good friends wishing me a Happy Valentine's Day. Who needs more than that right? 

Then... came a message from Chris, who seemed shocked and angry that I had of course deleted him and suggested we go our separate ways. Here is goes back to the idea of can you really be friends with someone after sharing intimate moments?  Well... let the chaos begin. I got an earful about how poorly I handled the situation yesterday. While some valid points were made, I finally concluded this was not the right day, emotions running too high, to make any decisions. We left the conversation with me needing some time to think...

Round 2 - a message from Jason, the first love and loss of my life who relocated west. Ironically, we fell apart one year ago tomorrow. When I found out he received the offer to move West. Well, today, I received word, one year later that he is moving back to Ontario, and by the sound of things back to the very city I live in. Other woman, and baby in tow... and there you have it. The boomerang... out of sight out of mind was not going to fix this one. The problem is back. I have no choice now but to face it, otherwise the city I live in is going to become one claustrophobically small space...

On a high note, although every ounce of me considered curling up in fetal position and surrendering. I realize, everything that has happened in my life has prepared me for this. Everytime we think we can not deal with life and so many things being thrown at us, we survive to see another day. And the pain, and situation passes. So I remain true to my favourite quote of all time:

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget the ones who don't. And believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it. If it changes your life, let it. No one ever said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it"

At the end of the day, Aaron called... and somehow it felt amazing... I know the sun will come up tomorrow. And whatever happens next, is all just part of the journey for me...

A favourite quote of a very good childhood friend comes to mind:

"Life is not measured by moments, but by the moments that take your breath away..."