Since the breakup of my marriage, I have not been in a single true relationship. For the past 20 months I've heard "you're SO lucky you're single...". That line frustrated me to no end! Did these people really know what it felt like to be alone all the time? Cooking for one, no one to laugh at movies with, no one to wake up to...
Here I am, and for the last few months I can finally appreciate it! I look around at people who cling to bad relationships because they don't want to be alone. While I have my moments where I would absolutely agree... I am finally beginning to appreciate the little things, and they are many.
Getting up and going to bed when I want
Cooking what I want, take out when I want
No one to argue with over meals, cleaning, what to do
I can watch what I want when I want
I can make a total disaster of my place, or clean it and keep it imacculate
I only have to do my own laundry
Listen to whatever music I want
Go out after work at the drop of a request, no one to justify it to
Stay at the gym as long as I want
So much more...
So I look back and try to understand why even I almost stayed in an unhappy place, what was I afraid of? It's easy to see now, of course hindsight is always 20/20. I didn't know what the hell I wanted... that terrified me. Now I'm finally finding a groove :) and it's all about me!
For those who sit and say, why is it so easy for others... perhaps it's not, perhaps they wish they could be you! As one of my besties reminds me, one day you will wish you had this time to yourself.
So here I am, living my life! Are you???
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