You've got ONE LIFE, don't stop, don't stop live it up!!!

I've always been known to get hooked on a song that speaks to my life in that moment. Right now, it is Hedley's "One Life".  I think we have all experienced the phenomenon of getting swept up in a relationship at some point, losing sight of our own needs, dreams, goals, and sometimes even just losing the sense of knowing what we even like...

When I get enamoured with someone, I find myself holding uncalled for placeholders in my time... the 'just in case" he wants to get together.  In recent months I've gotten so much better at just forgetting that, and doing what I'm supposed to do... LIVE MY LIFE.  I'm happy when I'm living. Sometimes, I lose sight of that for a minute... not hard to do.

Easy example... I was holding this weekend open for Chris, whom I'd sent an invitation to on Tuesday with the option of Saturday or Sunday.  36 hours later, with no reply to my invite... and Aaron having asked last night what my plans were... I finally just asked Chris why he hadn't replied. The answer was as lame as they come. Starting with an "I was confused by what the email was about" to "it's a crazy weekend for me babe, I'm sorry".  I had to sit on it for a few hours today... then the realization came to me... I'm not even mad that he isn't coming, or that he didn't even suggest an alternative date despite the fact that he has been asking why I haven't invited him out. I'm mad that it was a 36 hour placeholder that he never deserved in the first place. At the end of the day, that's my fault... yes, he was inconsiderate. But the only person I can control is me.

This song reminds me...

"It's a great big world, and you'll see
It could pass you by at light speed
You got one life, one life
Don't stop; don't stop live it up!!!"

My thinking... just live your life until that someone comes along and wants to live it up with you!